#16
your message reached me last night.
i don’t know how long it had been waiting. but i know that giving voice to those words couldn’t have been easy. thinking back on what happened still troubles me. each of us holds a story, and it’s a pity there’s no way for us to truly hear the other’s. so what really went on? no one can say anymore. what remains is simply the truth that it’s all behind us now.
ever since covid, for five years now, i’ve lived like a shadow trailing whatever feelings came and went. i told myself i was fine being on my own. but something shifted. through the relationships i’ve been in lately i came to realize certain truths about myself, and discovered old scratches from the past i had never been aware of.
so thank you. thanks for being with me through this stretch of time. for sticking around all this while. for showing me parts of myself i hadn’t yet seen. through this relationship i’ve learned and grown. it means this bond will never be lost. it lives on in who i am today, like a cloud living inside a blossom or in the shade of green leaves. this goes out to you: the perfect cloud mermaid. the gentle, poetic yeti. the highly caffeinated sunshine. the giggly lightning bug. the joyful, twinkling emoji.
may hope and calm be with you, through all that awaits in the days to come.