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toni morrison interview, mavis on four, 1988

mavis nicholson: do you think it is possible, then, for someone to forgive themselves even when they've done something absolutely terrible?

toni morrison: yes. It's called grace. At some point you do. If you don't, you're in a cul-de-sac. But you have to go through the fire first. You have to experience the full fall, and the complete self-loathing, in order to come around to something like the forgiving of oneself. It's when you skip responsibility, when you use a subsititute emotion like guilt - which is of no use to anyone - but if you feel the real thing which is shame, hatred, humiliation, and self-loathing: that is the door. And if you get through that, then you can forgive yourself.

~toni morrison interview, mavis on four, 1988

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